Leizi's new song released the day before yesterday happens to be called "Nineteen," which feels like a birthday gift—I'm especially happy about it.

This past year has been filled with intense love, hard work, the gaokao, the first time I seriously spoke of love, followed by a breakup, starting university, traveling, late-night cigarettes and alcohol, morning mist and the moon, as well as the sky in Suzhou that never quite turned pitch black and you, who disappeared for no reason.

If I had to summarize it, it would probably be humility and love. I learned how to speak of love, and I learned humility.

However, I'm actually not satisfied. No matter how humble I appear... deep down, there is still a stubborn streak of defiance. I learned how to speak of love, but I couldn't manage to keep loving her well. That is probably my biggest regret this year.

I initially thought the song that would summarize this year of my life would be "In Between The Lines," but I didn't expect it to end up being "Shan Shan."